After worrying about travelling back home with LO, it went remarkably well. LO fell asleep for most of the way and woke up in a delightfully charming mood, playing and cooing. She only got a bit antsy when we were near home. It has been a couple of days now and LO is settling in well all things considered. It’s amazing how resilient she is and how she just gets on with it. It is very easy to get lulled into a false sense of security with her and forget that it has been been a couple of days since she moved in with us. She occasionally gets a bit scared when she is alone with just one of us in the house. She is not scared of us thankfully but looks at the door if she hears or noise but then she forgets about it if she is distracted. She also can’t play alone at the moment and wants to see what we are doing all the time. It can be intense at times but again, it’s understandable as it’s early days and hopefully she’ll settle in as time goes on. We have introduced my parents to her and she was a bit frightened at first but then was happy to play with them.
As for me, I haven’t slept well at all since before the introductions. It’s not because LO is keeping us up, it’s just that I am suffering from a bout of insomnia because of the enormity of the situation. To top it all, I have had a cold for a while now and although being with LO is great and stopped me from feeling sorry for myself, I’m getting bored of being ill. It is most likely the lack of sleep which isn’t helping matters. Hopefully I’ll get rid of it (the cold and the insomnia!) so I can really enjoy time with the LO!
It seems surreal but completely natural looking after LO. She is utterly adorable and we both love spending time with her. We have been keeping up most of the routines from the foster carer as well as continuing to wash our clothes in the same washing powder and feeding her the same kinds of foods she is used to. We just hope we can do the best for her!